love

“Our love depends on the receiver of the love. Let a thousand people pass before us, and we will not feel the same about each. Our love will be regulated by their appearance, by their personalities. Even when we find a few people we like, our feelings will fluctuate. How they treat us will affect how we love them. The receiver regulates our love.

Not so with the love of God. We have no thermostatic impact on his love for us. The love of God is born from within him, not from what he finds in us. His love is uncaused and spontaneous.

Does he love us because of our goodness? Because of our kindness? Because of our great faith? No, he loves us because of his goodness, kindness, and great faith.”
from A Love Worth Giving.

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john 13:35 “by this shall all men know you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

i realize how imperfect my love is. this is my prayer, that i may learn to love as God has loved me-us! Lord if you have created me for love, to love, teach me how to truly love. to love as You have loved me.

1 corinthians 13:4-8 “love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails…”

protection guranteed

last friday when i got into the shower, i did something i don’t normally do. i looked where i walked. and i didn’t take this step. what did i do then? well i just stared. at the tiled floor. and i looked at it for seconds and.. well, nothing. it was just the floor. i continued looking though. didn’t take another step. and then i saw on the floor-a centipede! killed it and washed it down. thank You Lord for Your protection.. i was talking to a friend that very morning about how i think that having some visible protection from someone tangible was nice for a change. was praying for dad’s protection the other day. guess i’d started to forget how great God is.. and how faithful He is at protecting His children. today was a reminder. thank You Lord.. like i said that morning-”Haha Lord-i get the point! =D”

I stand in awe of You.

I live for You
All of my days belong to You
You draw me to
Your tenderness, You make me new
Into the secret place I will run
Where my heart can be free in the
Grace that I found in You

Unto You
Be all Glory and Praise
How my heart seeks Your Face
As I’m waiting on You

Only You
Are my strength and my tower
Fill my life with Your Power
As I stand here in awe of You
I stand here in awe of You

the will of God

1 samuel 13:14

“… the LORD has sought out a man after his own heart and appointed him leader of his people…”

the Lord sought david out! often times i’ve thought that i need to seek for God’s will in my life. i need to seek for His presence. little did i realise that He would seek me out if my heart were in the right place. why be anxious and worry about what God’s will is for me in my life? i know He will call me, set me apart when the time is right. when i am ready. in the meantime. what am i doing to prepare myself? is my heart right with God? am i a person after God’s own heart?

psalm 25:4-5

“show me the right path, o Lord; point out the road for me to follow. lead me by Your truth and teach me, for You are the God who saves me. all day long i put my hope in You.”

psalm 143:10

“Teach me to do Your will; for You are my God: Your spirit is good; lead me into the land of uprightness.

such was david’s heart. all he wanted to do was to serve God. it was his heart’s desire. he didn’t surrender part of his life to God. no. he did not even just surrender his best to God, he surrendered ALL his life to God. every single part of it. am i surrendering everything to God? is my heart’s desire REALLY to please Him and to please Him only? can i say with full sincerity “i desire to do God’s will; nothing more, nothing less, nothing else” ?

His lil princess

studying amongst brilliant minds may cause inferiority complex. i’m serious. been so humbled studying here. made me realise that the world is beyond the circle of ppl i used to know. not that i didn’t know this before. i guess i was so happy and contented in my ‘little world’  i chose to be ignorant.

so for the past few weeks i’ve been feeling the pressure. i’m sure most ppl would to a certain extent if they saw ppl studying all the time. i shall put it this way. when i jokingly say ‘i want to be a princess’ to a certain ‘mother’ and ‘father’ of mine, i actually mean it in a far from joking way.

have been praying about this issue. about self-worth. and He reminded me that i’m still His lil princess. i shall not make this too specific.. for fear of some stalker *cough* i mean some googler *cough cough* who may just want to figure out everything that’s going on in my life. i’ll just put it this way. a gift-which i figure may not even have been intended to be a gift-has served as a reminder that He thinks i’m His lil princess, no matter how much i may question my capabilities and regard myself as one at the bottom of the food chain. thank You Daddy. You sure have your way of reminding me how much You love me.

What if life only lasted a day,
Do you think we’d appreciate it better?
What if life was like hell,
Do you think we would dream? 
About a life like we have now?
What if in life we had everything,
Do you think it would get boring?
Why want another life? 
Your life is perfect already

permanent.

Will you think that you’re all alone
When no one’s there to hold your hand?
And all you know seems so far away and
everything is temporary rest your head I´m permanent

1st week in college

random stuff:

1. a striking statement: marriage is when a man loses his bachelors and a woman gains her masters.

2. most overused word: ”SCANDAL”

3. 15 minutes early is apparently not early enough for my classmates.

4. new thermos flasks stink.

5. wearing gloves to class makes ppl think you’re copying michael jackson’s style.

my 1st week here has been eventful.. i thank God for being sent here to inti nilai.. we don’t have to wear long sleeves and long pants everyday for class. guys and girls can actually have our meals together here. in general much more freedom compared to public unis. PLUS my roommate is one rare malaysian who prefers sleeping without the air-con on. *smiles* THANK YOU JESUS.

oh for those of you who were wondering. i got to do items 1,2,8,9 and 10 in my list of ’stuff i want to do before i leave kuantan’. i guess 5/10 ain’t too bad. =)

another companion

yesterday mum took me around to pet shops
it wasn’t as happy an activity as it sounds
mum and i were going from shop to shop
finding her a companion
to replace me.

mum said ”when you go i’ll be all alone
your brother spends most of his time out of the house
your father works offshore
even when he’s back he doesn’t speak much
might as well find a companion.”

… my heart aches.
guess it’s all part of growing up.
goodbye.

higher ground-june09

higher ground session june 09

aiyaks. readable ke?

DATE: 27th June 2009

TIME: 7.00pm

VENUE: christian praise centre (CPC)

see ya there!